being haunted in the night.

welll...... right now i'm feel quite sad. i am always wondering why must i have this kind of missing feelings?? i know i'm not handsome nor tall. but well i think i just have to know who i am. know my place. don't bother others. and tomorrow is school. i should put all mental focus to studying. it always easy to say but hard to do.tonight would confirm be sleepless night. and i'm now wondering. DID I REALLY FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU???

Cannot forget about the past.

Today, even though it seems that it is easy to forget about this girl. When it always at night, i would always remember about the time that we have been together. is this love?? or just a crush?? i always wanted to ask her for a steady but, actually it doesn't make a difference because the person she love isn't me. i always wanted to be the person in her heart but she just can't forget the past. it actually quite a torture. maybe the thine now sohuld not be about her, but more of what i want. should i carry on waiting for this girl which i myself don't even see a start. or mabe should i just forget her. the answer is hard, as each night i would always have the feeling of seeing her face or at lease messaging her. I should seriously start thinking about this. and her birthday present, i seriously don't want to keep it anymore. i also don't want to give it to her. she doesn't deserve something from me.

ITS TIME TO MAKE A CHANGE!!

Today, actually i have decided to go for another girl. i find that the girl i like is just cheating and toying with me. moreovrall she has already liked someone else. Its good to know and but to say the truth i regret knowing and even meeting her. So after this post, i shall HUNT FOR ANOTHER TARGET!! :D