Cannot forget about the past.

Today, even though it seems that it is easy to forget about this girl. When it always at night, i would always remember about the time that we have been together. is this love?? or just a crush?? i always wanted to ask her for a steady but, actually it doesn't make a difference because the person she love isn't me. i always wanted to be the person in her heart but she just can't forget the past. it actually quite a torture. maybe the thine now sohuld not be about her, but more of what i want. should i carry on waiting for this girl which i myself don't even see a start. or mabe should i just forget her. the answer is hard, as each night i would always have the feeling of seeing her face or at lease messaging her. I should seriously start thinking about this. and her birthday present, i seriously don't want to keep it anymore. i also don't want to give it to her. she doesn't deserve something from me.